Trusting Idiot

Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me -- Fool me after that and I am just a trusting idiot!

You pretend rather than believe they care about you. Time and time again you try to fool yourself into believing what is happening in your mind is real, despite the obvious facts. You pretend you are more than just a rag doll, that you are seen as a living, breathing, feeling being, deserving of respect and love. I'm sorry to say there comes a time when you  have to step up and accept that you will never be more to that person than just a tool, a stepping stool, welcome mat, rag doll... It hurts, but what hurts worse is coming to the realization that somewhere along the line of living in a pretend world justifying every foul play you came to believe your lies. You fooled yourself into thinking it was your fault, and that fighting it wasn't going to help anything so instead you laid down and let life steam roller over you. Soon you're bouncing from person to person, not being able to discern a good friend from a jerk. Eventually you stop caring, and you find yourself a filler person for someone. You find yourself getting into a "sort-of" relationship you know won't work because they are waiting for someone else, but you just don't care anymore. It's nice to finally be seen as a person, to feel needed, and wanted even for just a little while. It's worth it to you to waste your emotion on that person, to invest time, and effort, just to be seen and heard for a moment. 

That isn't a way to live! It isn't right, and it isn't fair to anyone! I am sorry to say this happens more often than it should!

There are those souls who are givers. Then there are those who are takers. Givers tend to lose their way and forget their worth. Takers rule the corporate world. 


To every person it is owed and deserved, common courtesy. 

It takes two people to have a friendship, or any kind of relationship for that matter. If one person doesn't do anything, it won't work and you need to just leave it where it is. It is a difficult thing to do, but I promise you, in the aftermath you won't be alone. You will have learned self-worth, and found someone who makes you laugh, and gives you a happiness and a peace of mind that you deserve!