Let It Go

Brandi Carlile released a new single March 8, 2010. A duet with Emily Saliers of the Indigo Girls. It is available exclusively on Amazon MP3, all proceeds go to Fight The Fear Campaign

Let It Go -

One Day, Some Day, and Tomorrows...

One Day I will...

Some Day I will...

Tomorrow I will...

It's said that the One Days, Some Days, and Tomorrow's will never come. I say they will. I say they do. I say that with a little patience and time ... With a bit of effort, and a spot of faith they will come ... And have come. We simply call them by a different name when those moments reach us. We call them Today's.

If I Was Afraid Of Flying

There is a place I call my own
Where I can stand by the sea
And look beyond the things I've known
And dream that I might be free

Like a bird above the trees
Gliding gently on the breeze
I wish that all my life I'd be
Without a care and flying free

(Flying Free)

Another Year Gone By

My 21st year has ended. I look forward to what my 22nd will bring! 

(Thank You to Marco for the photography: A Beginning)

Haynes, Shoulders, Knees, and Toes

There are moments in every girls life when she just needs to stop everything and just scream... One loud, high pitched or belted note/sound to express frustration, relief, accomplishment, pain, anger, annoyance, you name it.

Then, there are the moments when we need to blast the music and dance around in our underwear. Be it a fiesta at 2 in the morning, or mid-day -- a loud, stress relieving, Haynes/aerie/V.S. sponsored dance party is a must! 

Have You Ever Tried To Hold The Sky

Have you ever tried to hold time in your hand?

Have you ever tried to hold something longer than you should?

Have you ever tried to hold natures secrets?

Have you ever tried to stop the water with just your hands?

Have you ever tried to hold another's pain?

Have you ever tried to hold something that was too big for just you?

Have you ever tried to hold something that wasn't yours to hold?

Have you ever tried to hold onto the light?

Have you ever tried to hold a promise?

Have you ever tried to hold on to a wish?

Have you ever tried to hold the sky? ...

Blowing Out The Wind

You know, as a child we live for wishing on stars and fallen eye lashes. We look for 4 leaf clovers, and dried dandelions. We believe that if we wish hard enough those wishes will come true. Each twinkle light, and every seed becomes a hope. As we blow our wishes to the sky we hope with all of our little hearts that those wishes and dreams will blow in on the wind. Sometimes they do, but most of the time it takes Blowing out the wind, and walking against the current. It's something we learn to do as we grow up and learn who we are, and work towards becoming who we want to be.

That is where these photographs came from. The inspiration behind them if you will.

Holding On To Hope

I guess we held on too tightly, or blew too hard...

Irritable Male Syndrome

Men do suffer from a from PMS! It is called IMS: Irritable Male Syndrome. It has been proven and I will defend its case! I can't tell you how many times I have come in contact with a guy friend behaving like a girl on her period! It's hilarious and annoying all rolled into one!

Check out the Study Here!

"I'm afraid to sink, I'm afraid to swim. I'm sad to say I miss my friends I know that I'm supposed to step away but they need me to stay"

Again Today - Brandi Carlile. I woke up this morning with a specific part of this song stuck in my head. It was very ironic, especially as I handn't heard this song in awhile. After the happenings and conversations of last night and the continuation this morning I realize there was a specific meaning for those lyrics being there. "I'm afraid to sink I'm afraid to swim. I'm sad to say I miss my friends. I know that I'm supposed to step away But they need me to stay." 

(Don't forget to turn the music player [at the bottom of the screen] off!)

Broken sticks and broken stones
Will turn to dust just like our bones
It's words that hurt the most now isn't it
Are you sad inside, are you home alone
If I could just pick up the phone
Maybe you could see a better day
And you won't waste away
under my watchful eye
Because I'm your hero and you're my weakness

Who's gonna break my fall
When the spinning starts
The colors bleed together and fade
Was it ever there at all
And have I lost my way
The path of least resistance
Is catching up with me again today

I'm broken down, not good enough
The broken promises add up
To twice their weight in tears which I have caused

I'm afraid to sink, I'm afraid to swim
I'm sad to say I miss my friends
I know that I'm supposed to step away
But they need me to stay and keep a watchful eye
On all my heroes and all their demons

But who's gonna break my fall
When the spinning starts
The colors bleed together and fade
Was it ever there at all
And have I lost my way
The path of least resistance
Is catching up with me again today

Not today
Not today

Was it ever there at all
Or have I lost my way
The path of least resistance
Is catching up with me again today
Broken sticks and broken stones
Will turn to dust just like our bones again today
I'm broken down
Not good enough
The broken promises add up again today

Was it ever there at all
And have I lost my way
The path of least resistance
Is catching up with me again today
Again today 

Rain In The Soul...

It's raining outside my window. I've always preferred rain over every other sort of weather. When it rains all I feel is freedom. For some reason something inside me releases, and I'm no longer locked behind bars. I am allowed to just be me when it rains. It's as if every facade, washes away with the grime in the air and all that's left is me...

As the thunder rumbles, and the lighting tumbles, the rain dances -- and I don't need to speak. God has said it all.

Am I the only one?

Reality TV

I have decided my life just needs to be a Reality TV show! Every day something happens that just makes me stop and laugh at the entire situation. 

Example: 

Today, Cameron and I went into my parents bedroom. The door shut, no big deal right! I go about my business. Get Cameron dressed and ready for the day, when I go to turn the nob to leave... Comedy strikes! The doornob turns but the latch doesn't turn with it. I turn the nob the other way hoping the door is just playing a trick. The latch doesn't budge. I can't help but laugh as I shake the doornob half-heartedly knowing I am stuck fast. My cellphone was in my bedroom, and after a quick search of the master bedroom all I had was an earing, and a random miniature flathead screwdriver [that I found in the make-up drawer... someone explain this to me]. The earing was the only thing I could find to unscrew the doornob. The screwdriver was a bit to big, and the screws needed a philips screwdriver, not a flathead. Once the doornob was off I realized the latch was no longer attached to the main body of the doornob contraption. Thus the reason it wouldn't twist. Now for the tricky part... there is only one way to get the body of the doornob out of the door once you have the handles off. Unfortunately that requires the door to be open! So, I moved on to the hinges. I didn't know if the door would open even if I managed to get the door un-hinged, but I was desperate and willing to try anything. I used the mini screwdriver to push out the top hinge pin (Thank heavens that one was easy to do, as I am a little on the short side and had to reach standing on my tip toes...) the other two wouldn't push out. I tried to wiggle the door. I tried to use all my body weight. Nothing. I knew my dad's drill used to be in his room, and there was a tool kit at one point, but I hadn't been able to find either of them in my first search. I said a quick prayer, (somehow I remained calm and collected though highly amused during this whole ordeal) and went about searching again. There wasn't anything in the walk-in closet, under their massive bed, or on top of the wooden canopy. (Though I did find Ryan's missing birthday gift of 2 years!) I even checked behind and under the couches! On a whim I pulled one of trees out of it's corner, (My mom loves green things, so we have one too many fake plants of some sort or another throughout the house.) low and behold there was the pink tool kit! After a quick thank you sent to the heavens I was able to use the hammer to push the final two hinge pins out! I was able to fit my fingers underneath the door so I could pull the door and see if it would come out of it's place. My first try was a little interesting. I was able to pull the bottom corner out but the top was stuck, and the door wouldn't move anymore as the latch was holding the door fast in place. Cameron tried to help a bit by banging on the door. I knew I would be stuck in the room until about 4pm if I couldn't get the door open, and it was only 11:30am! I pushed the door back in to place, and pulled it back out again. This time all 3 hinges came un-done, but it wasn't enough to wriggle my fingers in-between the door and the frame. I tried it again, finally it came off enough I could fit my hands between the door and the frame and tug. I was afraid I'd break the door [it's hollow] but when I tugged the latch flipped out of the door. It was a little hilarious... Who knew this stuff happened in real life!? 

To quote Courtland "Oh my word, your life is an adventure at worst! I think I'd laugh myself to tears. You are most definitely a woman with your ability to innovate!"

Thank the Heavens God has a sense of humor, and gave us the ability to laugh!

Jack and Jill

Jack and Jill went up a hill to fetch a pail of water

Jack fell down and broke his crown

and Jill turned him into her parrot.

Back down through town 

Poor jack could be found

Being shown all around as Jill's trophy

Jack thought himself blessed

To be the one Jill loved best 

And proudly spouted the words that she gave him

Thus Jack was deserted

Thanks to the words that he'd spurted

For his friends lost all patience with him

Jill said Jack never you mind

The rest of the world is blind

For Jill had fallen in love with her creation

Poor Jack thought her true

(Though the poor soul had no clue)

She was not the one to love him through the hereafter

Jack sought to travel the world

He was such a beautiful bird

And Jill promised to him her forever.

So Jack gave her his heart

Though he knew it wasn't smart

And he banished all thoughts of his mistake

When home Jack returned

That poor soul learned

How Jill had not for him waited

A prince had come, and in town he had found

A beauty he wished to be crowned

Twas Jill, that unfaithful girl he'd chosen!

Jill flattered and wooed 

Her predicament she did brood

And wrote poor Jack a 'Dear John'

Now Jack was betrayed

His poor heart tattered and frayed

To that hill with heavy feet he did trod.

Sitting atop he did cry

Asking, Dear Father, Why?

My soul is now broken in two!

A Dove did descend 

And reminded him of his friend

Then left poor Jack with a bottle of glue.

The boy stayed his tears

As he grappled with his fears

And looked down in the grass where he sat

His old crown he saw there

Full of hope Jack shouted a prayer

And set to work with his glue in hand

The task now complete

Jack looked down at his feat

The crown sparkled and gleamed like new

On his head still it fit

There forever will it sit

For Jack finally learned his lesson

When your heart says to you, 'No'

And still forth you do go

Down the hill you are sure to tumble

But when truth you do follow

And your pride you do swallow

Peace and love will be yours in the end

On occasion they do go back

Atop the hill for dear Jack

So he can remember the lesson he learned.

 Jack with his crown

Should never again frown

As forever the two will live in Happy ...Comradery...?

Fear is Atheism

Jessica Meredith Gustason looked him in the face bold as you please and simply replied, "Fear is Atheism."


That is my facebook status. I know it's somewhat lame to quote oneself, but it was from one of the worlds greatest conversations, and should have been recorded! I wish I could quote back to you everything that was said, but I'm afraid that would shame a few people, and offend a few more. So, I will give you a brief synopsis of what the thought process was.


Fear is a lack of faith. Lack of faith is to distrust God. Distrust leads to disbelief. Disbelief is Atheism.