Charlotte Martin...

Okay, so I have to accredit this find to Stanley. However, it does not down play the amazing-ness this is Charlotte Martin!

Best. Comments. Ever.

This would be me leaving you a comment there by conferring an obligation upon you to reciprocate in an appropriate manner due to the afore mentioned imposition. The previous statement is endowed with certain ramifications that could be beneficial or detrimental depending on the speed of your fulfillment of the implicit contractual obligation hence forth imposed. Other mitigating factors you might want to consider include the facts that you know me both personally and professionally and also that it is hard to say that you wouldn't want to get with this...

-Stanley Langford Lloyd

(insert colloquial Salutation here)

(generic acknowledgement of annual ageing celebration)

(obligatory statement about longing to have contact)

(generic parting statement)
-Jessica Meredith Gustafson

Cameron Mark Gustafson 6lbs 10oz 18" long

I proudly present to you Cameron Mark Gustafson. He joined us here in the open world at 2:12pm December 13th 2008. A healthy happy baby boy, weighing in at 6lbs 10.8oz, 18" long! He's a calm little guy. Good thing too, because he's going to have a lot of people in his face. Especially his big sisters Miranda (9) and Emma (6). He and my mom will be home Monday for those of you who would like to stop by and see my 'love bug' yes... I call my brother 'love bug' I'm sorry but it fit.

He had a bit of trouble breathing when he first came to see us. The nurses got him going after a few minutes and he turned a lovely shade of pink!

Happy Baby!

Daddy and Baby!

Momma and Baby!

Ryan and his new baby brother... Cameron and his reaction to his brother.
Leesa just fell in love with this little boy... Cameron's face right before he began whimpering...

This little boy has my grandpa's nose. My curly strawberry blonde hair. He has my dad's ears, 'ribbon' lips and hands, and we're guessing he'll have more of my mom in his face. He doesn't cry. He gives a single yelp and then he's good. It's rather funny. He is a boy, it is certain! The minute they got him cleaned up he was searching around for food. He first found his fist... then the Binky... once my mom was out of surgery (having her last tube removed...) he found relief at last. He's our wiggly miracle child!

...? Never Underestimate The Power Of A Pissed Off Woman!

Betray: be⋅tray 

1.to deliver or expose to an enemy by treachery or disloyalty

2.to be unfaithful in guarding, maintaining, or fulfilling: to betray a trust.
3.to disappoint the hopes or expectations of; be disloyal to: to betray one's friends.
4.to reveal or disclose in violation of confidence: to betray a secret.
5.to reveal unconsciously (something one would preferably conceal

6.to show or exhibit; reveal; disclose: an unfeeling remark that betrays his lack of concern.
7.to deceive, misguide, or corrupt

8.to seduce and desert.

How many different definitions are there for one word... yet how many different feelings and emotions come with it...? One, and it's super huge, and super hard to deal with. Hurt... and with all my mighty, eloquent, and often difficult to understand words I have no other means by which to describe the thwapping sting that follows betrayal. Whether is is intentional or accidental; we often don't have the chance to defend our cause, as we are an emotional race... and slow to forgive and forget.

“One should rather die than be betrayed. There is no deceit in death. It delivers precisely what it has promised. Betrayal, though ... betrayal is the willful slaughter of hope.”
Steven Deitz quotes

“Betrayal is the only truth that sticks.”
Arthur Miller quotes

Hysteria...

I am officially burnt out. I'm done for right now and I don't want to deal with any more. I don't want to put up with, justify, talk down, or rationalize any more faults, failings, and/or mistakes. Of, for, or because of, anyone. Right now I want to be upset, and hurt, and I don't care how stupid it may seem. That is how I feel and that is the way it is going to be... until I choose/say otherwise.

P.S. I saw this quote and thought it was clever... it quite literally has nothing to do with anything. I'm on the verge of hysteria so I'm not making much sense. Love to almost all...

"Falling in love is not at all the most stupid thing that people do - but gravitation cannot be held responsible for it." Albert Einstein

Choosing To See What I believe, Not Just Believe What I Am Seeing.

To see is to believe, but what if we could see what we believed? There is a God. There is a Savior of the World. There is a Holy Ghost, a spirit of comfort. There is a true Church on this Earth, and there is a true Prophet living today. There is a Priesthood, and there are men who honor it with a purity. There is Hope, Faith, Truth and Belief in this world. How is it I can say all of this with a conviction that I know whole heartedly to be true? Because I believed it enough to see it.

There are those who Believe. There are those that Hope. There are those that Wonder, and there are those that Fear. Atheists will have you believe they are certain there is no God. I believe they are afraid to hope for something they refuse to see. Coincidence is easier to rationalize and comprehend than a Father who would continue to give unconditionally. It is hard for someone to comprehend and accept what they would not do themselves. I don't know one person who considers themselves strong enough to die for an entire race knowing full well there would be those that spit upon his grave, and turned away in shame/disgust/pride at the audacity he had to love without first being loved. With the way the world is now, a person will hesitate to make a purchase without first testing it. It goes through opinion after opinion before the faith in the item is enough to place down the funds. Not even that, before the trust in the place/person selling said item is placed firmly enough to purchase anything. It is astonishing to me that there is so little faith left in this world. Are we so cynical, and prideful we think we are the only ones worth of trust? Is there not another who is as trustworthy as we? The word of a person is no longer enough, it now needs proof and a letter of recommendation before it will even be considered. The world has become so visual, it is painful! Are we not taught to first believe? Question, and seek for truth, please! Gain a knowledge of what you believe, but if your heart tells you it is right, then it is right. The Heart has reasons that reason cannot know!  Don't continually seek for something you already know. Try accepting it, and then notice that it is everywhere! What I mean by that is, God's handiwork is so thick in daily life it is edible! There is not one thing he didn't first think up. Design. Imagine. The formula for concrete, Clouds, water, Aluminum, thread, air, plastic, trees, life... I could continue on, but I think you get my point. I see God, the Savior, and feel the benefits of the Holy Ghost at all times. I've been called 'perceptive' and 'open-minded' many a time. It isn't me. It's the Holy Ghost whispering tid-bits in my heart. Nudging here, pushing there, sticking his foot out so I fall on my face and land at the feet of someone in need of a laugh/friend/helping hand/chaperone... Worry is a form of Atheism. It is a lack of faith... I know it's scary, but quit waiting for the water to warm up. Your toe isn't going to be able to tell you the temperature of the entire pool. It takes jumping in, and swimming around. Faith comes before the miracle, and it takes faith after to remember and believe... but sometimes believing in the possibility of a miracle is enough.

I don't typically broadcast my testimony, but I can't get these thoughts out of my mind. Bear with me, it may not make sense now or ever... but rest assured it makes sense to at least me! :)

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